nirix5 | fuckers.

Say im hard to handle, Im easier to hold, no im no angel, ive got scars upon my cheek, im no stranger to the street

Every betrayal begins with trust - Phish

That is Spike's AIM user info. It almost seems like some kind of personal stab, even though I know it isn't.

Dumbass still has my fucking song lyrics. But that's my own fault, since I never made another copy.

Apparently I betrayed him somehow, and we haven't spoken since December. What the fuck did I do to piss him off, since we were never more than "just friends" and the whole time I was with him didn't even so much as talk to anyone else? Here's the last bit of the last conversation we had:

Me: So you'll call me when band rehersal is rescheduled.
Spike: Yeah, I'll call you then.
Me: Okay, call me later then.
Spike: I will. Bye.

He never called me back. I didn't push it, as Xmas and all its insanity was coming up, and I figured we were getting tired of each other anyways.

WILL SOMEONE TELL ME HOW I FUCKED UP HERE?!?!?!?

Oh wait... I know... I didn't put out.

Jesus Christ on a crutch. Men are so fucking STUPID.