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Yeah. So I was fine, and then I wasn't, and now I'm fine again. Just fine. Just motherfucking fine. I did [livejournal.com profile] xxroguexx's survey, and that helped to calm me down. Took forever though.

Think this was what Alex was talking about when he told me I didn't like to acknowledge my emotions? Probably. You know, it occurs to me now that I do that for a very good reason. You'll have to excuse the cryptic rant-I'm just quite shook up. Ugh. I think I'm going to throw up.

Lisa, Ben, Tom, et. all, I will call you back. Sooner or later. I just don't think I can talk on the phone right now. I'm still having angst, lol.

On with it.

*First Name: Heather
*Middle Name: Nichole D.
*Last Name: X
*Nicknames: Sumiko, Ariana, Feather, Fluffy, Tassana, NightRider (NiRi) Max, Duntauriel, Rose, Miss America, Sharkey, MonkFace, Queen Ami-Duh-Head, Dead People
*Birthday: November 23, 1982
*How tall are you: 5'8”
*You were born in: New York City
*Location now: the tundra
*Nationality: American
*Hair Color: dark brown
*Eye Color: greenish bluish grayish. It changes. I have Mary Sue eyes, ha ha.
*Shoe Size: 9
*Current School: I am my own institution of higher learning.
*Time you woke up today: 7 AM
*What you wore today: my lace up jeans and a gray tank top
*Where you went today: nowhere, really. Just working.
*What did you do last night?: Had a voice lesson.
*Who are your closest friends?: West Coast: Alta and Tamara. East Coast: Anna, Kate, Jeannette, Suzanne, Zoi, Tom. Hell, I’m close to all my friends, in different ways.
*Who knows the most about you?: Legolas.
*Meanest teacher: Life.
*What Languages do you speak? English, French, a tiny bit of Japanese and Portuguese.
*Do you smoke? No.
*Do you do any drugs? Adrenaline
*How many people are on your buddylist: not sure.
*Where do you shop at the most?: Er. H&M.
*Is your hair short or long?: Medium
*Have you ever been out of the country?: not yet. Just to Canada.
*What's your favorite color?: pale green, white, and all shades of purple.
*Do you have any piercings?: Ears.
*Do you like to shop?: Sometimes.
*What are you most scared of?: Spiders and telephones.
*How many phones do you have in your house?: 3
*How many TV's do you have in your house?: 2
*Who are you talking to right now?: No one.
*Favorite shoes?: my pointe shoes.
*What's your favorite soda? Regular coke.
*What kind of car do you want to have? I don’t have one, but I want a motorcycle.
*If you could have only 3 wishes what would they be?: I’m not entirely sure. I’ll get back to you on that one.
*Have you ever tried to kill yourself? No.
*Do you know anyone who SERIOUSLY wanted to kill themselves? Yes.
*What is your favorite fast food restaurant?: KFC
*Who do you really hate?: Racists, sexists, and narrow-minded Christian people who refuse to listen to other people’s ideas. In short, Republicans. But maybe I’m bitter.
*What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: Eyes.
*What are you addicted to? Fanfiction, Livejournal, pointe, tiaras, backwards outside spirals, and cherry tomatoes.
*Do you like jewelry? I love tiaras with a passion that’s kind of scary.
*Do you wear a watch? I can’t- I stop them.
*Do you have a job? I own my own business and help my mom at the bakery where she works sometimes.
*Did/Do you have braces? I want them quite badly.
*Do you type with your fingers in the right place?: yeppers.
*What is your favorite number? 8, 19, 24, 32.
*What's your favorite subject in school? Quantum Physics.
*What do you think is the perfect amount of hours to sleep per day?: 8
*Are you a night or morning person? Evening person, I guess.
*What is on the walls of your room? Postcards, posters, drawings, and some Christmas lights.
*Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: the leader of my own street racing motorcycle gang in LA or Phoenix, acting, singing, writing.
*Worst Feeling in the world: worthlessness
*Best feeling in the world: 80 mph down the freeway on a bike.
*Can you define love? If you want to define love, go to a psychology class.
*Do you get along with your parents? More or less.
*Are you ticklish? In some places.
*What's your favorite flower? My namesake, moonflowers
*What is the first thing you say to yourself when you wake up in the morning? Get up, dipshit, and do your stretches. Now.
*How many rings before you answer the phone? I answer the phone?
*Do you believe in God? Yes.
*How was the weather today? Cold enough to berate myself for setting foot out of Arizona.
*How old do you wanna be when you get married? I’m never getting married.
*Do you believe in love at first sight? For some people. Not for everyone.
*What are your favorite tv shows(s)? Dark Angel, Boston Public, Veritas, Miracles, and lately I’ve been faithfully watching Joe Millionaire.
*What color tooth brush do you use? Periwinkle. JohnJohn picked it out for me.
*What's your favorite candy? Peppermint patties.
*Who do you trust the most?: Legolas. He’s my imaginary friend, after all. And my cousin James.
*If you could have any job that you wanted in the world, what would you be?: Principal dancer with ABT, Olympic figure skater, actress, or Indiana Jones.
*How are your grades in school: *laughs really hard*
*Are you listening to any music at the moment?: Yes, I am.
*Do you believe in aliens? The universe is too big for us to be here alone. In fact I’d be worried if we were the only ones here. Make of that what you will.
*How much time do you spend online each week?: Way, way too much.
*Favorite inside joke: “You dug up my cat?!?!?”
*Are you lefty or righty or ambidextrous? Righty.
. What kind of chair are you sitting in? a stupid one.
. Do you have a fireplace? I wish.
. Do you share your m&m's in a false sense of generosity, but really keep all the blue / green / orange ones for yourself? Nope. I keep the brown ones.
. Do you think French women should just assimilate and shave their legs? Why? I think it would be great to go to France and have a vacation where I didn’t have to shave.
. What is the Pythagorean theorem? a2 + b2 = c2. The only thing I ever got right in high school, sadly.
. What do you think about toe socks? Eh.
. What about guys who wear toe socks? Guys wear toe socks? Hey. Whatever blows your skirt up.
. Do you floss daily? No. I hate flossing.
. Does your mother still pack your lunch? No. Although she would if I asked her to.
. And HOW old are you? 20
. Do you have all your fingers? Yes.
. Do you think it's right for someone's mother to pack their lunch? Sure, what’s the problem with that? Look at Japanese people. Their mothers pack their lunch until they’re forty.
. What is in your mouth RIGHT NOW? A tongue.
. Name somewhere you would LOVE to have sex: Okay. Here’s my answer to this. “Dish-breaking sex in a kitchen that isn’t yours.” Mmm-hmm.
. Have you run out of ideas yet? *shrug*
. Do you take any medication? Not really.
. Is it LEGAL medication? NyQuil is strong enough to be illegal, yet it isn’t.
. Have you ever cut your own hair? I cut off a lock to give to someone once. *romantic, huh?*
. Has your home ever burnt down? No, thank you god.
What's Your Favorite...
. Soup? This stuff Uncle Kevin makes. It’s spectacular.
. Underwear? The cotton ones I got for Christmas the year before last.
. Opposite? Boys.
. Bread? French bread
. Cereal? Cheerios.
. Font? Papyrus
. Garden tool? scythe
. Breed of dog? greyhound
. Cheese? St. Andre *on peaches… drool*
. Song? Too many to name. This second, it’s “Living in America” from RENT. Cause I love RENT.
Have You Ever...
. Used 16-point font or triple spaced a term paper to make it seem longer? Nope.
. Did the teacher fall for it? She didn’t have to. They day I can’t come up with bullshit for a term paper is the day that George Bush gets a brain.
. Read "Sparknotes" instead of the real book? Nope.
. Do you consider any of that bold-faced CHEATING? It’s not cheating if it wasn’t included in a legally binding contract signed by both parties with at least two witnesses.
. Dialed a rotary phone? I own one.
. Run away from home? ……………
. Brought an animal home and questioned, "Mom, can we keep it?" No, my dad always does that.
. Considered becoming a nun? I’m still thinking about it. It’s looking better and better, oddly enough.
. Kissed a member of the same sex? …………… Um. I’m not at liberty to say.
. Seen Rocky Horror Picture Show in the theatre? Yes. I am not a virgin, muah ha ha.
. Gone trick-or-treating and been given something OTHER than candy? Pennies, yo.
. Drooled in your sleep? Not that I’m aware of.
. Kicked someone in the nuts? Par for the course, baby.
. Was it intentional? You better believe it.
. Been kicked in the nuts? I don’t have nuts.
. Blown something up? Kinda sorta.
. Was it in the microwave? No.
. Do you ask people things you shouldn't? Sometimes, I leave my shame, you know, in my other pants.
. Do you tell people things you shouldn't? Rarely.
. Ever run up the down escalator or down the up escalator? Yes.
. How often do you brush your teeth? More than I should.
. When was the last time you went to the doctor? I have no idea.
. Why were you there? ??? the last time I remember I had strep throat.
. Do you write reminders to yourself on your body with ink? Sometimes, but I always get yelled at for it.
. Do you hate spiders? More than anything on the stupid planet.
. Should we turn Pakistan into a big parking lot? No. Put the politicians on Celebrity Boxing.
. Do you celebrate Christmas? Yes’m.
. If so, do you have a REAL tree? Always.
. What color are your towels? Blue or rose, depending on what’s being washed.
. Do you ever go "commando"? If the occasion calls for it- but that’s pretty rare.
. Are the "quotation marks" getting "annoying"? “Is this knife held to your throat annoying?”
. Do you IM people or wait for them to IM you? I’m almost never on, so.
[are you smart?] Compared to some.
[how many personalities do you have?] many facets of one, and an imaginary friend.
[how many piercings do you have?] 2.
[tattoos?] a feather on my left shoulder.
[do you like v-8?] long ago, when I lived in Cali, I drank it a lot.
[what was your first word?] grapes.
[are you superstitious?] More than I’d like to admit.
[do you read your horoscope?] yes, but I don’t go by it.
[do you believe in that stuff?] some of it.
[can you do a cartwheel?] yes
[do you have bangs?] no
[do you have contact lenses] no
[can you drive?] yes *evil grin*
[what do you drive?] the little ghetto car.
[do you snore?] not that I know of.
[do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge?] Lick.
[do you keep a journal?] Are you reading this?
[whats the best awards show?] I like the dresses from the Oscars, but I never watch them.
[do you like onions?] yep
[do you like cotton candy?] live for it!
[do you like pina coladas?] not really my thing, but they’re not bad.
[what instruments can you play?] my voice, and a little bit of bass and harp.
[what words do you overuse?] Drama, nice, sweet, awesome. And motherfucker, now that I think of it.
[what do you sleep in?] tank tops in the winter, nothing in the summer.
[how many pillows do you have?] only one.
[do you like to dance?] I love it
[do you like to sing?] love that too, although my stage fright is over the top.
[are you any good at it?] people have told me so, but I’m always second guessing them.
[how many CDs do you have?] lots and lots.
[do you like to talk on the phone?] hell no!!!
[how many times have you moved houses?] six
[what do you think of chain letters?] I tend to delete them.
[do you like where you live?] it’s not as bad as it could be, but actually, I hate it.
[is your room messy?] sadly :(
[how many people go to your school?] I’m not in school.
[do you like your writing?] I’m proud of it.
[do you like to fingerpaint?] not really.
[what do you smell like?] freesia and ‘heaven’ body spray.
[are you organized?] more than I appear
[do you sleep with a stuffed animal?] no.
[do you sleep with socks on?] no
[are you shy?] around people I don’t know, a lot.
[do you talk to yourself?] not out loud.
[got any lucky charms?] not in particular.
[is your house 1, 2, or 3 stories?] 3
[do you have a basement or an attic?] the attic is my bedroom
[did you go to preschool?] nope.
[are you a morning person?] more than a lot of people.
[whats your favorite outfit?] my lace up jeans and my gray shirt or black muscle tank.
[do you have a friend that you wish wasn't?] no?
[who has the sexiest voice in the world?] Vin Diesel and Aragorn. And believe it or not, Jeannette. She’s got a phone sex voice.
[who has the most annoying voice in the world?] Tom Brokaw.
[whats your IQ?] no clue. But my sister’s a genius!!!
[whats your purity test score?] HA!!!!!
[are you a virgin?] no
[are you proud of that?] it’s a non-issue.
[do you believe in reincarnation?] yes
[do you believe in ghosts?] yes
[do you believe in bigfoot?] never met him.
[do you believe in the Loch Ness monster?] sure, why not?
[whats your favorite feature (on yourself)?] my eyes.
[what do you do when you're nervous?] twist my ring and count.
[whos your role model?] er.
[what celebrities do you look like?] none really, but the one I come closest to is Liv Tyler. Or maybe Thora Birch.
[what celebrities do you act like?] I have no idea.
[how old do you wish you were?] ageless.
[have you ever gone skinny dipping?] every chance I get.
[have you ever thought you were gonna die?] not really. Maybe metaphorically.
[wheres the farthest place you ever traveled?] California
[where do you wanna go?] Everywhere.
[what religion are you?] Episcopal (read: a form of Roman Catholicism with Pagan overtones found in certain parts of New York City and I think Louisiana.)
[whats the best advice you've ever been given?] Do the right thing. Never bring a knife to a gunfight. Always have the facts at your command. Life is a ball if you’ve got the balls for it.
[whats your motto?] I’m not sure.
HAVE YOU EVER..
*Kissed someone: why, yes, I believe I have.
*Been in love: …………
*Been so drunk you blacked out: not quite that drunk.
*Cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend: nope.
*Kept a secret from everyone: oh, yes.
*Set a body part on fire: *shudder* no.
*Had an imaginary friend: he’s a six foot tall elf who’s sitting on the table next to me. Larva to my Miyu.
*Called or seen a psychic: we tend to travel in the same circles. Never intentionally.
*Ever cried at a chick flick: no, just asteroid movies.
*Had a crush on a teacher: not really. Just lots of respect.
*Found a cartoon character attractive: JEDITE!!! MY CORN MUFFIN!!! WHERE ARE YOU?!?!?!
*Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the block tape: nope.
*Prank called someone: yes.
*Eaten a whole box of cookies and thought you were fat after: yes, but that was in between bouts of nausea.
*Been on stage: yes
*Gotten in a car accident: yes
DO YOU...
*Wear eye shadow: on occasion
*Have a dog: I’m not a dog person.
*Want a tattoo, and where: have one.
*Have any regrets: a few real zingers. Along the lines of “I can’t believe I said that.”
*Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes, I have boys and girl who are my friends.
*Crush: not really.
*Do you have a best friend: several
*Who do you go to for advice: Legolas.
*Who knows all your secrets? Legolas.
*Who do you cry with: I don’t cry.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
*God/Devil: yes.
*Yourself: most of the time.
*Your friends: most of the time.
*Aliens: sure. Kind of depressing not to.
*Love: yes.
*Destiny: in a way.
*Signs: they tell me when not to cross the road, so… no?
*The Closet Monster: sometimes.
*One person for everyone? For some.
. What did you wish your name was? Francesca. Lucia. Bella. Helena. Honora. I was almost Elizabeth Anges (pronounced Ahn-yes) and I like it.
. Did you want to get married? Not really
. How many kids did you want to have? Zero.
. What did you want their names to be? Boys: Darren Rowan or Xander Allen. Girls: Avelina Meshia (Meshia is Maruice’s idea.) Cecilia Helene.
. What kind of a perfect life did you want to live? I want to have a Lara Croft-ish life until I’m about forty. Then I want to have my own chocolate shop/bakery in a nice neighborhood someplace, with all the money I need to be comfortable.
. What kind of house did you want to live in? loft in downtown Manhattan, or a Rivendell-style house in New Zealand or Idaho/Wyoming. Or a mansion in Princeton or Bucks County
. Did you play with dolls or army toys? I arranged Barbies. I set up little tableaus on the dressers and freaked when anyone touched them.
. What was your most favorite toys' name? Can’t remember.
. Who was your childhood hero? Storm from the X-Men
. What was your favorite article of clothing? My bubble suit *misses it* it was like a little skating dress with pastel polka dots.
. Who did you want to be like when you grew up? Megan on My Little Pony or the Little Mermaid
. Who were some of your best friends? Katie, Alicia, Chrissy, and Jen.
. How old were you when you learned to ride a bike? 10
. How did you feel? I can pretend I have a horse! WHEE!
. What was your favorite food? Chicken cutlets
. What did you think it would be like to drive a car? I thought I would be scared.
. Did you ever own anything that had to do with my little ponies, rainbow brite, or GI Joe? Yep
. Did you play with Barbie and Ken dolls? Not really.
. Did you play with baby dolls? no
. Did you ever have one of those play kitchens? Hell yeah
. Did you ever own a Cozy Coupe? ????
. Do you remember shows like, Ducktales, Tale Spin, Gummi Bears or Lunch Box? DUDE!!! I LOVE Ducktales and Tale Spin. I’d watch them now if they were on.
. Did you ever own a power wheels car? nope
. Did you ever watch the show "Puff the Magic Dragon? nope
. Who was your favorite pet? My cat Max (I still miss her. She ran away. Smart, jumping out the window instead of coming here to Sticksville.)
. Did you ever believe in Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny? Yes
. If yes, who did you think the santas and easter bunnies at the mall were? I was told that they were Santa’s helpers, cause he couldn’t be in 9734978249872 malls at once.
. How did you feel when you learned how to tie your shoe finally? Awesome.
. Did you ever have one of those slap-on wristbands? Woo yeah
. Did you ever wear stick-on earrings? I was a clip-on girl
. Write down one specific memory that you have never forgotten of your childhood: This time that I went up in the attic, and there was a lamp with no shade lit on the floor in a circle of boxes, and next to it was a dead bird, and I put my hand on the light bulb and burned my hand really bad.
?Whats your goal in life? To be a Main Character
What you plan to do later? Wash dishes.
What are you doing here? Trying to reassure myself that I do, in fact, exist, and focus on something else than my fucked up life and mind.
Besides writing the answers? See above.
Besides doing that? Trying not to throw up.
Isn’t that nasty? Definitely not pleasant.
Will you let me ride the pony? Get your own pony, asshole.
Can I? No.
Why? Fish.

All this bullshit is quite exhausting.

I feel sick.

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