I hate my brain. Hate it. To death

Just royally bombed my first chemistry test. Go me. Didn't answer a nine point question because I totally blanked on the formula I was supposed to use, even though I'd studied it- I knew what page it was on, and where it was on the page, and what color ink it was written in, for god's sake, but I just could not remember it.

As soon as I got out of class I went to my spot on the stairs, pulled out my notebook, read the formula, and cursed out loud for about ten minutes. Then I kicked the wall a couple of times. And now I'm here, overwhelmingly pissed at my own abject stupidity.

I'm not sure how I did on the rest of the test. When I got it I looked the whole thing over and freaked out, because none of the questions made sense and I had no idea what I was supposed to do. However, this happens on almost every test I take, so I skip all over the place and do questions out of order until things start to come together. That happened this time- as I kept doing problems, things got easier and started to click. But that doesn't mean I'm going to pass.

And to top it all off, I had the third movement of Moonlight Sonata going through my head, over and over, at the loudest possible mental volume. Which made concentration a problem. No matter what I tried, I just couldn't change it.

Why can I remember a difficult piano piece note for note in total clarity, but not remember the damn formula to calculate wavelength????

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!

( Musings on last night's CSI )

I hate my brain. Hate it. To death

Just royally bombed my first chemistry test. Go me. Didn't answer a nine point question because I totally blanked on the formula I was supposed to use, even though I'd studied it- I knew what page it was on, and where it was on the page, and what color ink it was written in, for god's sake, but I just could not remember it.

As soon as I got out of class I went to my spot on the stairs, pulled out my notebook, read the formula, and cursed out loud for about ten minutes. Then I kicked the wall a couple of times. And now I'm here, overwhelmingly pissed at my own abject stupidity.

I'm not sure how I did on the rest of the test. When I got it I looked the whole thing over and freaked out, because none of the questions made sense and I had no idea what I was supposed to do. However, this happens on almost every test I take, so I skip all over the place and do questions out of order until things start to come together. That happened this time- as I kept doing problems, things got easier and started to click. But that doesn't mean I'm going to pass.

And to top it all off, I had the third movement of Moonlight Sonata going through my head, over and over, at the loudest possible mental volume. Which made concentration a problem. No matter what I tried, I just couldn't change it.

Why can I remember a difficult piano piece note for note in total clarity, but not remember the damn formula to calculate wavelength????

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!

( Musings on last night's CSI )