Lunatics and Princesses

Is it just me, or is the song "Boys of Summer" really kind of slashy?

Cause, you know, I can think of so many pairings to set to it- several of which would get me crucified.

Jack/Will, Aragorn/Legolas, Aragorn/Boromir, J/B (!!!!!) J/J, Alice/Rain (very roundaboutly), Haldir/Aragorn...

Heh.

Setting this one aside for J/W and J/B.

Oh, I'm bad. Yeah.

The Boys Of Summer
Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home

But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

Out on the road today, I saw a BLACK FLAG sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

...and that's really fucking cool. Not much, to be sure. Just an intro to this fic that's been floating around in my head for a while. But I worked on the intro to the other fic last night, so maybe I'm getting out of this slump I've gotten into. This makes me quite happy.

I love how my dad still thinks he can tell me what to do. *sigh* I'm watching the time. I'll get off the damn computer when I feel like it.

Here's some song lyrics for you.

"I Will Find You" by Clannad

Hope is your survival
A captive path I lead

No matter where you go
I will find you
If it takes a long long time
No matter where you go
I will find you
If it takes a thousand years

(Mohican)
Nachgochema
Anetaha
Anachemowagan

No matter where you go
I will find you
In the place with no frontiers
No matter where you go
I will find you
If it takes a thousand years

(Cherokee)
Hale wú yu ga I sv
Do na dio sv I
Wi ja lo sv
Ha le wú yu
Do na dlo sv

No matter where you go
I will find you
If it takes a long long time
No matter where you go
I will find you
If it takes a thousand years

No matter where you go
I will find you
In the place with no frontiers
No matter where you go
I will find you
If it takes a thousand years

No matter where you go
I will find you

Damn. I love everything about this movie.

I want this hat.

I’m going to get this hat, and I’m going to wear it every day.

Then I’m going to mouth off to my dad and push my kind-of-wannabe boyfriend around, while defending my newest crush and his actions with impassioned speeches.

“They do NOT live their lives by your leave! They hack it out of the wilderness with their own two hands, burying their children along the way!”

*nods*

Yeah. I know this movie backwards, forwards, and upside down.

It’s like my favorite one EVER.

Likewise, this song fucking rocks. It's from the Fast and the Furious ST. Huzzah.

( Deep Enough Lyrics )

You may have heard this song on the radio. If you haven't, you're not missing out on anything. My apologies to the people who actually like it. You see, I have some weird kind of complex in regards to emotional drivel and this song just kind of takes the cake. It's so...so... sissy la la creampuff. So I've posted the lyrics, but with the addition of the words I'm usually shouting at the radio when it plays. Enjoy!

My comments are in Italics

Daniel Bedingfield - "If You're Not The One"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
Cause you took your medication this morning?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
Opposable thumbs?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
It doesn’t, you freak, stop calling me and leaving weird voicemails!
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
If you fall over I hope you’re standing next to a three thousand foot drop.
I never know what the future brings
A restraining order…
But I know you are here with me now
That’s only cause you hit me over the head and dragged me in here.
We’ll make it through
But you’re paying for the therapy bills
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
…At a constant distance of at least fifty feet
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
no, want to run away, want to run away!
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Cause you’re PSYCHOTIC???? HMMMM???
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
NO!
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
Cause you were born spineless? Grow some balls, dude.
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
----> See above comments on state of mental health
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
I’m not the one to talk to about frequent flier miles.
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
Get away from me. Freak.
I don’t know why you’re so far away
Because I’m running away from YOU.
But I know that this much is true
No, it’s a lie...
We’ll make it through
No, we won’t...
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
Your hopes shall be dashed upon some very sharp rocks.
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
Murder/suicide?!? Only if you’re Orlando Bloom. In which case I would be the murderer, having killed you for singing this dumb song...Woe is me.
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
As long as I get to brick you up in the basement… I have a cask of Amontillado I’d like to show you, now that I think of it. *evil grin*
I hope I love you all my life
*shudder*
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If you don’t want to run away, I will. I can deal with that.
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Heartbeats aren’t morse code… don’t read into it.
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Sure, as long as I’m strangling you!
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
Huzzah for suffocation!!!
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
*sticks pins into voodoo doll* fall over, fall over, right into an elevator shaft…
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
It’s wrong. Trust me, it’s wrong.
And though I can’t be with you tonight
Thank god for small favors
And know my heart is by your side
Ew! Put that thing back in your chest before it stains the carpet.
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
Yes, you do. You want to run away.
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Cause you’re as blonde as they come.
Is there any way that I
…have finally finished this song? HOORAY!!!

Thank you. This has been a Feather Production. Huzzah.

You are Aredhel Ar-Feiniel, the White Lady of the
Noldor, who loved to ride and hunt in the
forests. Seduced by the Eol the Dark Elf, you
lived with him in seclusion for many years
before fleeing with your son, Maeglin. Eol
pursued you and when, in his anger he threw a
javelin at Maeglin, you threw yourself between
them and were slain protecting your son from
the wrath of his father.


Which Elf chick are you from Tolkien's Quenta Silmarillion?
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I've decided to write a Silmarillion for Dummies book.
Well, after I get all my other work done.

Found a poem that I'm going to work into one of my hangings. I got it out of a book called Pillars of the Earth, which everyone should read. It's very intriguing, although long. Here it is.

La Chanson de Jaques Cherbourg

A lark, caught in a hunter's net
Sang sweeter then than ever
As if the falling melody
Might wing and net dissever

At dusk the hunter took his prey
The lark his freedom never
All birds and men are doomed to die
But songs may live forever

Mater says I should do Drops of Jupiter or a Paul Simon song. We shall see.

Oh yeah! Almost forgot. For all you Chicago fans out there.

HUNYAK: "What am I doing here? They say that (untranslatable) held my husband firmly and I chopped off his head. This is not true, I'm innocent. I don't know why Uncle Sam says I did it. I tried to explain it at the police station, but they did not understand it..."

ROXIE: "Yeah, but did you do it?!"

HUNYAK: "Uh uh. Not... guilty!!"

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

I can't believe I did.
I can't believe I didn't.

Yeah. You think you know.

"She said you like it now,
But you'll learn to love it later."
~ Somewhere Down The Crazy River

Tomorrow's going to be better, right? Right?
I'll get all of this out of my system tonight and put it behind me.
I'm already halfway there.
I won't chance onto any Sept. stuff.
I won't let my mistakes get to me.
I'll make more of an effort at work. (This is questionable.)
And that's about enough of that. It's so cliched-gung-ho feel good psych stuff. Ugh.

This song seems incredibly timeless to me. It reminds me of Elves for some reason. Other things, too, but that's really making a stretch and picking the lyrics apart.

Do you still remember, how we used to be,
Feeling together, believe in whatever,
My love has said to me,
Both of us were dreamers,
Young love in the sun,
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave you,
We'd only just begun

Hasta manana, Always be mine
Viva Forever, I'll be waiting,
Everlasting, like the sun,
Live Forever, for the moment,
Ever searching for the sun

Yes I still remember, every whisper word,
The touch of your skin, giving life from within,
Like a love song that I'd heard,
Slipping through our fingers, like the sands of time,
Promise made, every memory saved,
Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana, Always be mine
Viva Forever, I'll be waiting,
Everlasting, like the sun,
Live Forever, for the moment,
Ever searching for the sun

But we're all alone now, was it just a dream,
Feelings untold, they will never be sold,
And the secret's safe with me

Hasta Manana, Always be mine
Viva Forever, I'll be waiting,
Everlasting, like the sun,
Live Forever, for the moment,
Ever searching for the sun

"Viva Forever" ~Spice Girls (yeah. Kill me.)


"But we're all alone now, was it just a dream,
Feelings untold, they will never be sold,
And the secret's safe with me"

Hmm. I like that.

I feel so... I don't know. Nothing. I missed Joe somehow today- he didn't page me, I hope he's okay- talked to Kate, saw Magoo, and Tom and Jon. Kate's coming out tomorrow- yay!- and I hung out with Jeannette and Benny last night. Jean's party thing at Magoo's is on Thursday. Yeah, so all of a sudden I go from no life to a crazy, in demand social schedule- LOLOL, it's so hysterically funny.

Not laughing. Huh.

Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within

Yeah, something like that, I guess. I hate feeling like this, and sometimes I just give up before pulling myself out of whatever it is and starting everything all over again.

I need to figure out what I want to do with my life, writing a column in Playboy aside. Although I'm pretty sure I'm the only person who would write the phone numbers two three modeling agencies and two convents on the same piece of paper. I should probably stick with the convents. My teeth aren't straight enough for modeling, phooey. Oh well.

I love Alicia Keys's music. I swear to God it's the only thing that gets me through sometimes.

And this song makes me homesick for Arizona. I used to listen to it at Jonelle's all the time- I miss her so much.

"Yeah. We put her in charge of cookies and milk and she still screwed it up."

~ Jonelle on me.