Rambling.

Haven't updated in a while because I was underwhelmed by motivation. Or, I was motivated to clean up my room but not write anything in here. And I was only half motivated to do that. (Read: approximately one half of my floor is visible.)

*twiddles thumbs*

I start my new job on Monday. Which I guess is cool- although I have no experience putting machines together. Hey. I'll learn, right? The hours are way better- 6 AM to 4:30 four days a week- and I get seven dollars an hour, which is a vast improvment. Which means:

I have money again.
So I can make my costume(s).
And wall hangings.
And redecorate my room.
And buy new clothes (since all of a sudden I've discovered that I am, in fact, a girl, and have these crazy urges to accessorize.)
And... do other stuff. Like pay the phone bill and my student loans.

Okay. Which brings me around to room decorating. I don't know how I want to do it; it's an oddly shaped room, what with the slanted roof and all. Dad says to get rid of the railings, which is a wonderful idea. I can get some nice ones done at Clearwood. *loves custom things*

It's kind of sad. I'm listening to Disney songs. Quite voluntary. Sometimes I just need to sing along with the Little Mermaid, but it's always such a humbling experience. Like I should be a little ashamed of myself. But the only thing I'm ashamed of is having "I'll Make A Man Out Of You" from Mulan on my playlist. And liking it! *sheepish giggle*

I miss Zoi-chan all of a sudden. Alas, I have no Aladdin to listen to.

I miss Arizona too. Had another homesick day today. And the overwhelming guilt of not having called Jonelle in a year and a half (!!!!!) It's cause I failed her, you know. I'm just a big all around failure, and sometimes I just don't give a fuck.

GAH!!!!!!

It's okay, though. I'll pull myself out of this tomorrow. Back on track again and all that, although my phone phobia has gotten worse, so I keep steadfastly refusing to speak to anyone on it. Will work on that. Yes precious.

Rambling.

Haven't updated in a while because I was underwhelmed by motivation. Or, I was motivated to clean up my room but not write anything in here. And I was only half motivated to do that. (Read: approximately one half of my floor is visible.)

*twiddles thumbs*

I start my new job on Monday. Which I guess is cool- although I have no experience putting machines together. Hey. I'll learn, right? The hours are way better- 6 AM to 4:30 four days a week- and I get seven dollars an hour, which is a vast improvment. Which means:

I have money again.
So I can make my costume(s).
And wall hangings.
And redecorate my room.
And buy new clothes (since all of a sudden I've discovered that I am, in fact, a girl, and have these crazy urges to accessorize.)
And... do other stuff. Like pay the phone bill and my student loans.

Okay. Which brings me around to room decorating. I don't know how I want to do it; it's an oddly shaped room, what with the slanted roof and all. Dad says to get rid of the railings, which is a wonderful idea. I can get some nice ones done at Clearwood. *loves custom things*

It's kind of sad. I'm listening to Disney songs. Quite voluntary. Sometimes I just need to sing along with the Little Mermaid, but it's always such a humbling experience. Like I should be a little ashamed of myself. But the only thing I'm ashamed of is having "I'll Make A Man Out Of You" from Mulan on my playlist. And liking it! *sheepish giggle*

I miss Zoi-chan all of a sudden. Alas, I have no Aladdin to listen to.

I miss Arizona too. Had another homesick day today. And the overwhelming guilt of not having called Jonelle in a year and a half (!!!!!) It's cause I failed her, you know. I'm just a big all around failure, and sometimes I just don't give a fuck.

GAH!!!!!!

It's okay, though. I'll pull myself out of this tomorrow. Back on track again and all that, although my phone phobia has gotten worse, so I keep steadfastly refusing to speak to anyone on it. Will work on that. Yes precious.