There is no Arizona? Sometimes I wonder.

Today last year I stepped off the plane from Arizona.

I miss it very, very much. It was the end of something and the start of something else, which in itself ended.

I took a picture from the overpass as Tamara drove me to the airport. It was of the sun, just coming up over the mountains, tinting the sky a delicate shell pink. I haven't seen it, I don't know if it came out or not. But it's imprinted in my mind forever.

I had been up all night at my going away party- JC got "drunk"; I was rushing around packing last minute things; we went for a ride one last time; Alta cried and wouldn't come to the airport with me. She almost didn't say goodbye. I miss her. I cried too.

I've changed, no doubt about it. Things I wanted for so long I don't want anymore. Wounds I thought would never close did. Time passes. I'm a year older than I was, but only a little bit wiser. That came with a price, but I don't think I would have traded it for anything.

A whole year. Damn.

When it rains it pours, you know?

There is no Arizona? Sometimes I wonder.

Today last year I stepped off the plane from Arizona.

I miss it very, very much. It was the end of something and the start of something else, which in itself ended.

I took a picture from the overpass as Tamara drove me to the airport. It was of the sun, just coming up over the mountains, tinting the sky a delicate shell pink. I haven't seen it, I don't know if it came out or not. But it's imprinted in my mind forever.

I had been up all night at my going away party- JC got "drunk"; I was rushing around packing last minute things; we went for a ride one last time; Alta cried and wouldn't come to the airport with me. She almost didn't say goodbye. I miss her. I cried too.

I've changed, no doubt about it. Things I wanted for so long I don't want anymore. Wounds I thought would never close did. Time passes. I'm a year older than I was, but only a little bit wiser. That came with a price, but I don't think I would have traded it for anything.

A whole year. Damn.

When it rains it pours, you know?

You'll find me hiding behind the moon tonight.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

I can't believe I did.
I can't believe I didn't.

Yeah. You think you know.

You'll find me hiding behind the moon tonight.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

I can't believe I did.
I can't believe I didn't.

Yeah. You think you know.